Dang it now I think Alex is mad…

Thank you Noah.🙃😊

Audrey when I think oh the word kind, your the first person that comes mind.I’m not a very good friend when it comes to making people feel better, but I will keep you,in my prayers

Well, I know, it’s sin! I am broken. I just need to run to Go. Lord I need you. I want to change. I want to live for God. I want to dedicate my life to God. Please help me grow strong in my faith Lord.

Maybe I’m not changed because I’m not believing it and living it. Why am I telling myself I’m depressed? I’m happy, I enjoy myself, I get out and do stuff. I guess when I’m alone I just like to make myself feel like I have it tough, like you haven’t given me so much. What is wrong with me?

I have been questioning my faith lately. Not thinking that God’s not real or something, but that maybe I’m not a Christian whose strong in her faith. maybe I’m weak and running away from God even though He would give me peace if I just run to Him.

I just refuse to focus on the reality that God loves me more than anyone ever could, even though I am selfish and rude and negative. All I have to do is love Him back.

I’m scared to share my thoughts like this because I’m scared they”ll think I’m awkward. I let it influence me the wrong way. I’m insecure and I don’t trust God. I know I cant get anymore trustworthy than the god who never breaks a promise. So my lack of trust doesn’t make sense.